Somehow, I feel as if I’m stuck in the best friend role in the movie of my life. Don’t get me wrong, I have a good life. I have a happy home with my puppy and my boyfriend, I have some damn good friends. But there is something missing.
I have this innate instinct to please others, to make everyone else happy. ALL THE TIME. Even people who could care less where my feelings stand. Sometimes, I’m just not even sure where my feelings start, and others end. It happens so much I don’t even realize what I’m doing. I get caught up in situations because I’m being the good guy, I’m seeing things from everyone’s point of view.
I think I have lived my whole life scared to hurt someone else’s feelings. Putting people I don’t even know ahead of myself. Forgetting that I have feelings that mean something, forgetting that I matter as well.
I’ve somehow always managed to surround myself by very strong, bold personalities. I let them take charge of most decisions, while I sat back and went with the flow.
Why do we allow this to happen to ourselves? Why do we think how other people feel is more important? Why do we let those with dominant and more assertive personalities control our lives?
But it is time I take back control of my own life. I need to live my life from my own point of view. I can’t let other people make decisions for me. I can’t feel bad if I like someone that others don’t, and if I don’t like someone who everyone else loves. I don’t need to hide any part of me just because it is different. I can’t live to serve anyone else. I have to make myself happy, because clearly, no one else will make it a priority.
ALL OF US WOMEN SHOULD BE THE LEADING LADIES IN OUR VERY OWN MOVIE.